यह करियर मूल रूप से मेरे पीछे तब पड़ गया जब मैं न्यूयॉर्क के स्पोकन-वर्ड (कविता पाठ) मंचों से जुड़ी थी। मैं बार-बार सुनती थी कि मेरी कविता पढ़ने का अंदाज़ — जो उस समय बहुत निजी और मन का बोझ हल्का करने वाला था — लोगों को बहुत छू जाता था। मेरे बोलने के अंदाज़ को देखकर लोगों को लगा कि मैं कोई अभिनेत्री हूँ, जबकि मैं तो बस अपने काम में डूबी हुई थी और सचमुच अपनी आत्मा उड़ेल रही थी।
This career essentially chased me down while I was on the spoken-word scene in New York. I kept hearing that my delivery of my poetry - which was very personal and cathartic at the time- was very moving to folks. People thought that I was an actress because of my delivery, when I was just dropping into the work and really pouring out my soul.
This career essentially chased me down while I was on the spoken-word scene in New York. I kept hearing that my delivery of my poetry - which was very personal and cathartic at the time- was very moving to folks. People thought that I was an actress because of my delivery, when I was just dropping into the work and really pouring out my soul.
पुलिस को फोन करना एक बहुत बड़ी बात होती है क्योंकि आप किसी की मुखबिरी नहीं करते—आप इसी संस्कृति में पले-बढ़े हैं।
To call the police is a really big deal because you don't snitch - that's the culture you grow up in.
To call the police is a really big deal because you don't snitch - that's the culture you grow up in.
मुझे लिखने का बहुत शौक था; अपनी जवानी के आखिरी सालों में मेरी एक 'ज़ाइन' (छोटी पत्रिका) हुआ करती थी। लेकिन अपनी पढ़ाई पूरी करने के बाद, जब मैं अपने 20 के दशक के आखिरी पड़ाव में वापस कॉलेज गई, तब जाकर मुझे वास्तव में अहसास हुआ कि मुझमें लिखने की प्रतिभा है।
I loved to write; in my late teens I had a 'zine. But it wasn't until I went back to school, later on in my 20s, that I actually saw that I had writing talent.
I loved to write; in my late teens I had a 'zine. But it wasn't until I went back to school, later on in my 20s, that I actually saw that I had writing talent.
तुम थोड़ा सहज क्यों नहीं हो जाते, बस एक पेशेवर की तरह पेश आओ। शायद तुम कुछ ज़्यादा ही दिल से ले रहे हो—शायद तुम ज़रूरत से ज़्यादा परवाह कर रहे हो।
Why don't you just ease up a little bit, just be professional. Maybe you're over-investing - maybe you're caring a little too much.
Why don't you just ease up a little bit, just be professional. Maybe you're over-investing - maybe you're caring a little too much.
किसी चीज को ढोए रखने या किसी रुतबे को बनाए रखने के दबाव की मुझे कोई ज़रूरत नहीं है। मुझे अपने काम में आज़ाद रहने की ज़रूरत है।
In terms of having to uphold something, I don't need any added pressure. I need to be free in the work.
In terms of having to uphold something, I don't need any added pressure. I need to be free in the work.
अगर आपके पास कोई सबूत न हो तो अपने [गैर-लाभकारी] संगठन के लिए फंड जुटाना बहुत मुश्किल होता है। यह काफी हद तक अभिनय की दुनिया जैसा ही है: काम और संसाधन पाने के लिए आपको एक एजेंट और मैनेजर की ज़रूरत होती है, लेकिन जब तक लोग आपका काम न देख लें, तब तक आपको एजेंट और मैनेजर मिल नहीं सकते।
It's hard to get money to support your [non-profit] organization if you have no evidence. It's very much like the acting business: You need an agent and manager so you can get a job to get resources, but you can't get an agent and a manager unless people see your work.
It's hard to get money to support your [non-profit] organization if you have no evidence. It's very much like the acting business: You need an agent and manager so you can get a job to get resources, but you can't get an agent and a manager unless people see your work.
मेरा झुकाव पढ़ाई की तरफ बहुत था। लेकिन मेरा अंदरूनी जीवन बहुत उथल-पुथल से भरा हुआ था। मैं घर जाती और वहाँ का माहौल इतना दर्दनाक और दुखी करने वाला था कि मुझे बस ऐसा लगता था कि मैं जो मुझसे अपेक्षा की जा रही है, वही सब कर रही हूँ। मैं अपने सारे घरेलू काम करती, बहुत अच्छे नंबर लाती और स्कूल में अव्वल रहती, लेकिन मैं खुश नहीं थी।
I was very academically inclined. But my inner life was in such turmoil. I'd go home and my home life was so miserable that it just felt like I was doing everything that I was supposed to do. I did all my chores, made really good grades, and I was excelling at school, but I wasn't happy.
I was very academically inclined. But my inner life was in such turmoil. I'd go home and my home life was so miserable that it just felt like I was doing everything that I was supposed to do. I did all my chores, made really good grades, and I was excelling at school, but I wasn't happy.
पुलिस को लेकर मेरी अपनी सोच यही थी कि वे आपके मोहल्ले में आते हैं, बिना किसी वजह के आपके अपनों को पीटते हैं और उन्हें उठाकर ले जाते हैं। एक बच्चे के रूप में आपने यही सब देखा था।
My own perception of cops was that they came into your neighborhood, they roughed up people that you loved for no reason and took them away. As a child you saw that.
My own perception of cops was that they came into your neighborhood, they roughed up people that you loved for no reason and took them away. As a child you saw that.
मुझे अहसास हुआ कि एक अभिनेता के रूप में इस करियर को अपनाने से मुझे कुछ अंदरूनी सीख और फ़ायदा मिल सकता है। हालाँकि, एक बार जब मैं इस इंडस्ट्री में आ गई, तो इस करियर से इंसान के भीतर जो गंदगी पैदा हो सकती है, उससे मुझे सचमुच घृणा हो गई।
I realized that there was something internal that I could gain from pursuing this career as an actor. However, once I got into the business I just really abhorred what this career can drum up inside of a person.
I realized that there was something internal that I could gain from pursuing this career as an actor. However, once I got into the business I just really abhorred what this career can drum up inside of a person.
भले ही जिस मोहल्ले में मैं बड़ी हुई, वहाँ कुछ बुरी चीजें भी थीं, लेकिन वहाँ एक अपनापन और परवाह भी थी जहाँ आपको पता होता था कि आप कुछ गलत करते हुए पकड़े नहीं जाना चाहते। मोहल्ले में कुछ ऐसी अच्छी बातें भी थीं जहाँ मुझे एक समुदाय के रूप में संवारा गया और प्यार मिला।
Even though the neighborhood I grew up in had some unhealthy elements, there was a caring there where you knew that you didn't want to get caught doing something wrong. There were bright spots in the neighborhood where I felt nurtured on a community level.
Even though the neighborhood I grew up in had some unhealthy elements, there was a caring there where you knew that you didn't want to get caught doing something wrong. There were bright spots in the neighborhood where I felt nurtured on a community level.
मैंने पाँच साल तक अभिनय की पढ़ाई की। उस समय मैंने कॉलेज छोड़ दिया था। देखिए, मैं जो करती हूँ पूरे दिल से करती हूँ। जब मुझे पता होता है कि मुझे किसी दिशा में जाना है, तो मैं पूरी तरह समर्पित हो जाती हूँ और अंत तक जाती हूँ। बाकी सब चीजें पीछे छूट जाती हैं और मैं पूरी तरह उसमें उतर जाती हूँ। इसलिए लगभग 30 साल की उम्र होने के बावजूद मैंने पूरी तरह से अभिनय में छलांग लगा दी।
I studied acting for five years. I quit college at that point. You know, I go hard. When I know I'm supposed to go in a direction, I'm fully committed and I go all the way. Everything falls to the side and I'm all in. So I completely dove into acting even though I was almost 30.
I studied acting for five years. I quit college at that point. You know, I go hard. When I know I'm supposed to go in a direction, I'm fully committed and I go all the way. Everything falls to the side and I'm all in. So I completely dove into acting even though I was almost 30.